I feel pain, searing pain that goes through the core of me. I just want it to stop. Being utterly unable to stop crying...no wait, sobbing and rocking, rolling things over in my mind, absorbing everything. I have never felt so weak and pathetic.

The tiny part of me that is insightful these days has some thoughts:

• The shock of stopping ( Read more... )

It has been ten days since my last post. I cannot really translate experience into words at this point. Suffice it to say, my brain has been battered and bruised by the unpredictable and dramatic swings, the chemical ebb and flow of withdrawal from old meds and introduction of new, and the lowest of lows (truly - I cannot even say.)

Today, I am ( Read more... )